Your wedding day is meant to be the best day of your life! Its meant to be the day that you are at your happiest! How do I feel about it? Absolutely bricking it!
There is SO much planning involved and if your Fiancee is anything like mine then you are planning the entire thing single handily with the odd bit of input if he doesn’t like an idea! It’s a lot! If you’re new to this engagement malarky then you have your work cut out, there is SO MUCH to think about! I’m not scaremongering, I’m being real!
The planning has been ok, what’s not ok is how much everything costs! People, myself included go to weddings, have a great day but never really appreciate the amount of planning and money that has gone into it all unless you’ve already been married or currently planning.
Aside from the fact that I am completely skint from all the little shitty bits, you have to buy that NOBODY thinks about and kitting my bridesmaids out with outfits and hair accessories I have had a massive reality check that I still have so much to pay for and haven’t even looked at a dress.
As a woman, for me and I know a lot of other brides my biggest anxiety at the moment is the fact I’m not losing weight. Its completely my fault I think I’m genuinely addicted to sugar! I’m fine all day, drink loads of water, have a light lunch but when I get home I turn into a rabid animal biting anything within my vicinity, its a surprise I haven’t eaten the groom to be quite honest! I literally have visions of me looking like a pig in a dress and them playing here comes the pig instead of here comes the bride! Oink!
I know its ridiculous that we put SO much pressure on ourselves but its really stressing me out!
I do worry that all these little anxieties are going to make the day impossible to enjoy. If I’m worrying this much 7 months before, how am I going to relax on the day being consumed by worries everything will go wrong (which unfortunately is how my brain seems to work)?!
I’m also bricking it that I’m going to cry the whole way down the aisle because my Dad won’t be there (which I most likely will). I’m spending a fortune on makeup that I could quite possibly cry off in the first 10 minutes of the day!
Another vision I’ve had is of me falling down the aisle. I am the most clumsy person known to man and can fully see myself on my arse within seconds of entering the chapel!
I’m making all of this sound really negative. Of course I’m excited! I have planned what I hope will be an amazing day and have really focused on everyone being entertained I just wish I could relax a bit!
I just need to take the viewpoint that what will be will be. If I look like a pig then ill just need to work it! If I cry the whole way down then just don’t take photos of me ugly crying! If I fall over I will laugh it off like my best mate Jennifer Lawrence!
If anyone else is in the same position as me at the moment, breathe and try and enjoy it!
P.S SEND HELP!!!!!!!!!!!